Mindless Rumblings - 2

Here I stand at yet another cross road of life. It wasn’t too long ago that I was coaxing myself to believe things happen for the best. All of a sudden a strange kind of cynicism and pessimism has started to engulf me. No matter how hard I try the sinking feeling is recurring. Am I the same person who believed life is in shades of black and white because it just is not possible to live a mediocre life of gray? Am I the same person who really believed in Life is what you make it?

From a very long time I believed faith has more strength than fate. I questioning myself is not out of routine. It has been after a pretty long time. What is it that I am doing wrong? I ask all this to myself to remind myself this is not what I am. I have an alter ego who helps me remind nothing lasts forever and all this is going to be over soon. Yes it seems to be at some distance owing to my frame of mind. Good that it is at a distance, for it is easier to believe that it is the shortest length between success and failure.

Am I doing the right things?

The answer is obviously – I DO NOT KNOW. This is for you to answer. But what I would like to know is that wouldn’t this have been the best any which ways? 8 out of 10 times definitely yes. 2 out 10 times maybe, bordering on the zone of a definitely no. So probably YES!! You are more or less doing the right things.

Why is that I am not getting what I want?

There is a definite time to everything. If you get something before it is supposed to reach you- its undervalued. Worst still longing for something too much may result in settling for the mediocre. So, be patient. Hold on. Believe on yourself. Have faith. If not today- then tomorrow. What is that you want? Define it again.

Most likely it is the mental limitation that is causing you to question yourself. Please remember that life is intertwined with lows and highs. And it is all in the head.  The more you force yourself into believing that it’s going wrong, the more it goes wrong. So let things settle down for themselves. Remember for something that is already happening, there is not much you can do. Patience is the key. You might have a 1000 things that you would want to do to escape the situation. But the only solution is HOLD ON. Life has been unfair at times, but you came out once. And again. And again. So, one more time does not hurt. Faith is the word. It works.